Realization

It is really tough what I’m going through with this experience of working abroad. Going to another place is an adventurous and exciting one, but there’s one fact that remains, it’s hard to separate with the things you already are used to doing it and living it with almost all of your life. We are so attached with our families, friends and colleagues, and it’s hard to adjust and adopt new environment and start all over again. I admit, no matter how I show them that I’m strong, sometimes I tend to breakdown somewhere down this road and want to shout out all the yearnings of going back to the things it used to be.

But this is life. we need to move on to expand our horizon. Life is not a fairy tales that always ends in happy ending. It is us who are writing our own fairy tales. As people always used to say, life is like a wheel that spins around in circles.

Sacrifice, this is one of the things that I realized and learned from this experience. I guess that I’m qualified to say that I know the true meaning of sacrifice. But learning is a continuous process and everyday, I tend to have deeper realization in my life. There were some things that were taken for granted, and I needed to learn the lesson the hard way. Sacrifice means maturity. I’m beginning to feel the responsibility of taking care of someone and taking care of myself.

Patience, applying it, is harder than saying it. We always tell to others to be cool but when the same situation comes, you will also act the way they acted. I’m trying to extend my patience, but if I feel that the need to defend myself, I will stand for what I believe is right. But of course, I also need to be logical and professional while relaying the messages. I’m one of the people who are representing our company back in Manila, and I don’t want to let them down with the outcome of the things I had done.

Being independent is the thing that I always wanted. I want to be free like a bird, flying around to places that I had never been and to explore things that I never knew it existed. Everything has its pros and cons. It’s up to you how to weigh it and choose which side you want it to be.

Communication is one of the most important things that we all need to understand. We often misinterpret people from the way they are saying. It’s normal to react on what they had said, but we need to realize and put yourself in their shoes. Try to learn their language and culture, and you’ll find out why things are being done that way, or why words are being said to you.

I don’t know if I’m making sense with what I’m writing, but this is my thought that lingers around my head. Just want to share it with you.

You know, my heart says I’m missing my family and friends but my mind tells me that I’m following the roadmap that I had planned for my life. I want to reach my dreams, and this is one of the ways, being away from work to look for better opportunity.

Mind over heart? Or heart over mind?